i really should try to get back to sleep, but i saw you never got a response and i strongly believe in giving people resources if they’re genuinely open to other ideas.
when it comes to being anti-capitalist, i think of the Mr. Gotcha comic
https://www.reddit.com/r/WorkReform/comments/zojnmv/mister_gotcha_by_the_great_matt_bors_dont_be_a/
you can recognize capitalism as harmful and also “participate” in it when you have to survive in a society that offers no alternative, while you work towards said alternative.
i think of the frustration that can come from therapists being “paid to care.” a therapist can genuinely care while being paid - they need to eat.
i would recommend following people who are anti-capitalist, as well as minorities (racial/lgbt/disabled) so you can understand how capitalism harms people, and also learn about alternative ideas (since there are many). do understand that a lot of discussions may be emotionally charged and might make you feel uncomfortable. i have, and still often do, feel that way. generally i try not to argue, but i take the information in and reflect on it. what it means, why the person had the response, what is making me have my emotional response. i’ve found it so useful for educating myself as well as having better emotional regulation, empathy, patience, and compassion. there is no losing.