I made it to the end of the day and now I can finally go to sleep and turn off the thoughts.

[jsstaedtler@mastodon.art]

I made it to the end of the day and now I can finally go to sleep and turn off the thoughts. If I'm lucky they won't rev right back up in the morning.

[xerozohar@retro.pizza]

@jsstaedtler good luck

[jsstaedtler@mastodon.art]

@xerozohar Thank you

[jsstaedtler@mastodon.art]

Update: damnit

This is all just too much. I'm not built to handle all of this. I'd be hard pressed to manage even without the mental illness. I wish I knew for certain that I will make it through this and eventually have the life and relationships I've always wished for but shit, that's so far away

[aelspire@aelspire.info]

@jsstaedtler Sorry to hear it. I cannot help you with your loneliness but I hope that mentioning that I really like your art will help you a little.

Loneliness seems like epidemic today. What I’m finding weird that it seems to affect all sexes. While I hear mainly about male loneliness, my friend (older than me) has 2 daughters and they seem, from what I’m hearing, pretty lonely too.

[jsstaedtler@mastodon.art]

@aelspire Thank you, that actually does help 😊

[jsstaedtler@mastodon.art]

Still going through hell. I recognize that it's easier when I'm distracted by fun stuff or socializing with other people, but the root problem is still a problem. I badly need my therapist, still waiting for my appointment on Monday

[dzwiedziu@mastodon.social]

@jsstaedtler
It's okay (つ. •́ _ʖ •̀ .)つ

[jsstaedtler@mastodon.art]

I also ought to be job hunting more, but when I'm depressed I don't even want to do *fun* things, never mind chore-like tasks. Also imagine if I miraculously got an interview, and had to do that while depressed and sleep deprived 🫠

[jsstaedtler@mastodon.art]

Dang, two others I follow posted similar stuff at roughly the same time as I did 😬