Will be a different christmas for me this year.
My partner died earlier this year, my plans to go and visit my daughter, her husband and all of his family went up into smoke after I got sick on sunday and I'm still recovering. So that's that.
I could go and briefly visit my elders but chances are I could spread it to them, too.
So I will be pragmatic. I'm staying home, preparing some steamed veggies for my christmas meal, hoping my stomach doesn't hurt after that having a long walk and probl. make some tea and try a biscuit afterwards. At last I might turn on the tellly and watch some fairy tales, the last Unicorn or Astrid Lindgren's Emil/Michel and maybe check how things are at Nakatomi Tower and then call it a day.
I feel unexplicably calm. Don't feel anger, despair or dissappointment. Maybe a bit of melancholy maybe. 2025 was a difficult year in itself for me and my family. Why should christmas time be different, now.
anyway, wishing you a peaceful christmas time to all of you.