@Tionisla It's the holidays that really highlight the differences. They are landmarks - 'a year ago today' or 'five years ago today' - and they make the absence of those who are gone feel even heavier.
That's why, these days, I love ordinary days. Normal life. Normal thoughts. So, my wish for you this year is to have a normal day, dedicated to doing the things you enjoy and that make you feel good while you recharge.
You are here and, I hope, will be for many, many more years. There will be other Christmases. And your daughter will be waiting for you in the days to follow, too.
A big hug!