Will be a different christmas for me this year.

[tionisla@mastodon.bsd.cafe]

Will be a different christmas for me this year.

My partner died earlier this year, my plans to go and visit my daughter, her husband and all of his family went up into smoke after I got sick on sunday and I'm still recovering. So that's that.

I could go and briefly visit my elders but chances are I could spread it to them, too.

So I will be pragmatic. I'm staying home, preparing some steamed veggies for my christmas meal, hoping my stomach doesn't hurt after that having a long walk and probl. make some tea and try a biscuit afterwards. At last I might turn on the tellly and watch some fairy tales, the last Unicorn or Astrid Lindgren's Emil/Michel and maybe check how things are at Nakatomi Tower and then call it a day.

I feel unexplicably calm. Don't feel anger, despair or dissappointment. Maybe a bit of melancholy maybe. 2025 was a difficult year in itself for me and my family. Why should christmas time be different, now.

anyway, wishing you a peaceful christmas time to all of you.

[stefano@mastodon.bsd.cafe]

@Tionisla It's the holidays that really highlight the differences. They are landmarks - 'a year ago today' or 'five years ago today' - and they make the absence of those who are gone feel even heavier.

That's why, these days, I love ordinary days. Normal life. Normal thoughts. So, my wish for you this year is to have a normal day, dedicated to doing the things you enjoy and that make you feel good while you recharge.

You are here and, I hope, will be for many, many more years. There will be other Christmases. And your daughter will be waiting for you in the days to follow, too.

A big hug!

[tionisla@mastodon.bsd.cafe]

@stefano thanks mate!

I know what you mean, what you said about ordinary life. It kind of feels now I was taken some steps back and to watch the whole holiday stuff from the sidelines. Odd experience.